wesley’s thoughts

Sep 30, 2020 — 12:05 #

“are you morally obligated to feel X” is such a bizarre question

Sep 28, 2020 — 18:16 #

hmm i wonder why i feel bad it couldn’t possibly be that i had a bunch of caffeine and barely any food today

Sep 28, 2020 — 11:52 #

thinking about how good the TMBG wiki is

Sep 26, 2020 — 11:12 #

trying to think of a definition of a state that categorizes the united states government as a state, but doesn’t categorize google or the NRA as a state, and also is coherent with typical libertarian arguments about private organizations being more effective than states

Sep 25, 2020 — 22:57 #

kcal/hectare-day is such a strange unit

Sep 25, 2020 — 20:26 #

man it seems like there’s rat drama happening and i sort of want to know what’s going on but also really don’t

Sep 23, 2020 — 22:13 #

i’m pretty sure that the concept of eggs going bad is fake

Sep 22, 2020 — 16:52 #

aw man the usps site is down :(

Sep 21, 2020 — 13:14 #

well today is just the most completely detached from reality day yet, thats cool

Sep 16, 2020 — 23:46 #

managed to put my brain in an extremely weird state

Sep 16, 2020 — 00:45 #

i definitly have a twitter crush and this seems bad but i’m just gonna lean into it

Sep 14, 2020 — 23:03 #

my new and Extremely Good music organization system is just keeping a bunch of bandcamp and youtube tabs that people have sent me in a browser tab and randomly ruffling through it whenever i want to listen to something

Sep 13, 2020 — 14:04 #

cleaning the fridge has a really great effort/reward tradeoff

Sep 12, 2020 — 17:08 #

considering advocating for a new all-ice-cream diet

Sep 10, 2020 — 22:27 #

my perception of time, on a micro scale, is completely fucked up. not sure if this is new or not.

Sep 10, 2020 — 11:16 #

i made a bunch of cornbread but then i ate it all and now i don’t have any more and i’m sad

Sep 08, 2020 — 14:15 #

wow boba guys in hayes valley is just straight up not very good? i miss gong cha :(

Aug 23, 2020 — 23:25 #

thinking about explicitly being vegetarian (sans gelatin, rennet, and maybe some fish-based sauces, probably)

Aug 23, 2020 — 21:39 #

pretty fucked up that san francisco is like… 50 square miles

Aug 23, 2020 — 21:14 #

family-owned businesses are just nepotism with a positive connotation

Aug 18, 2020 — 22:18 #

oh i guess i should update the timezone for thoughts! now in pacific time :)

Aug 19, 2020 — 01:13 #

not having a microwave is really annoying. microwaves must’ve been an absolute gamechanger for leftovers.

Aug 18, 2020 — 15:08 #

thinking about how taking your own advice can often be a bad idea — it’s easy to have advice that’s very useful for most people, but the reason you have that advice is because you implement it too much in an extreme. being extreme about it allows you to see very clearly the effects of the advice, but it can often have negative effects that implementing a less extreme version wouldn’t have.

Aug 17, 2020 — 19:10 #

TIL that “peewee” is an official egg size according to the USDA

Aug 14, 2020 — 18:17 #

spending a bunch of money on cooking supplies and realizing that it comes out to the same as like… 2 weeks of getting delivery every day

Aug 14, 2020 — 14:14 #

i really want my bike to arrive in SF :(

Aug 13, 2020 — 21:47 #

i guess they still do happen? but it seems like they aren’t what they once were.

Aug 13, 2020 — 21:42 #

i wish world fairs were still a thing

Aug 06, 2020 — 13:56 #

2020 is folding my laundry for the month and only finding four pairs of socks

Aug 06, 2020 — 07:10 #

youtube drama channels are tabloids for zoomers and honestly i love it

Jul 29, 2020 — 21:40 #

i want reaction videos to the big tech congressional hearing to be a thing

Jul 29, 2020 — 03:27 #

hyped for the 2020 census results tbh

Jul 28, 2020 — 00:34 #

contemplating the symbolism of cleaning your glasses

Jul 27, 2020 — 17:03 #

fucking love it when i get to use nyquist sampling theorem tbh

Jul 26, 2020 — 00:05 #

a moth just kissed my head

Jul 25, 2020 — 21:42 #

thinking a lot about games that give you a real choice in actions, but manage to invert the moral polarity of the actions that you’ve taken by withholding/showing given bits of information later. can this be done well in a way where there is truly no canonically “true” interpretation, where all information is mistrusted? it seems hard, we have a bias towards believing information that is revealed later in stories over information that is revealed at the beginning. maybe subverting that by having a cliche twist reveal, then having a second reveal that makes the first one clearly false would communicate a similar idea?

not really, though. i want to communicate that any action could be morally correct given the right viewpoint, making all options unsatisfying.

maybe that’s a bit mean, though.

Jul 25, 2020 — 07:52 #

i listened in
yes i’m guilty of this, you should know this
i broke down and wrote you back before you had a chance to
forget forgotten
i am moving past this, giving notice
i have to go
yes i know the feeling, know you’re leaving

Jul 24, 2020 — 04:30 #

honestly amazed at the sheer number of different ways that minecraft villagers manage to be problematic

Jul 21, 2020 — 01:53 #

there is one good scene in Interstellar (2014) like 15 minutes in when they chase the drone in their car and hack it, and the entire movie is downhill from there. but that scene is so good.

Jul 20, 2020 — 17:06 #

hair dryer reviews are funny because the best-case scenario is there are 50 reviews that are like “this is great” and like three that are like “two stars: best hair dryer i’ve ever use, but after two months of use it started an electrical fire and burned down my entire house”

Jul 20, 2020 — 04:16 #

tbh, it’s astonishing to me that kanye is only polling at 2%

Jul 19, 2020 — 23:19 #

making funny noises at someone back and forth is basically like having sex

Jul 19, 2020 — 01:52 #

apparently custom ASMR videos where the person says your name is a thing and i looked one up that has my name and it feels Extremely Weird

Jul 18, 2020 — 23:01 #

i discovered that you can change out the nosepads on glasses for nicer ones and this is absolutely lifechanging

Jul 18, 2020 — 02:51 #

reading a bunch of democratic party bylaws today, it’s fucking committees all the way down

Jul 17, 2020 — 22:53 #

you know you’ve fucked up when you start thinking about writing an open letter…

Jul 17, 2020 — 20:58 #

i came up with a really good tweet but it’s about a thing that happened like 3 years ago so i can’t tweet it :(

Jul 16, 2020 — 03:02 #

thoughts got a glow-up :)

Jul 16, 2020 — 01:46 #

been having so many dreams-within-dreams recently. wonder what’s up with that.

Jul 15, 2020 — 11:28 #

i’ve been running a git checkout for the past 5 hours…

Jul 15, 2020 — 03:22 #

“research” vs “exploration”

different things, easy to confuse.

Jul 14, 2020 — 02:48 #

i’m becoming a person who cares about typography and it’s terrible

Jul 14, 2020 — 02:17 #

tbh it’s pretty unfair that docs only look queer on women

Jul 11, 2020 — 16:25 #

massive spike in “what the hell am i doing with my life everything is a terrible decision” recently. do not recommend.

Jul 11, 2020 — 05:04 #

i’m reading a bunch of studies on tool use in animals and it’s really great when they mention that a particular animal doesn’t appear to take into account some property of a tool when trying to determine which tool to use and then they also just casually mention at the very end that humans also fail the same test

Jul 10, 2020 — 03:15 #

“knowledge worker” but “knowledge criminal” instead

Jul 10, 2020 — 03:04 #

there have been an alarming number of bugs in my house recently

Jul 06, 2020 — 18:15 #

thinking about how the “nyc is digging mass graves because of the number of deaths from coronavirus” news cycle was like two days then everybody stopped talking about it

Jul 06, 2020 — 01:35 #

nothing quite like looking at housing in san francisco to remind you what an absolute nightmare world we live in

Jul 03, 2020 — 20:30 #

a little annoyed at how hard it is to build a singlethreaded web server in rust

Jul 03, 2020 — 19:02 #

we’ve got a long way to go with this whole computer thing

Jul 02, 2020 — 18:30 #

auuuughhh why the hell did i decide to listen to this clubhouse audio

Jul 02, 2020 — 07:28 #

i biked 38 miles today.

upper manhattan is very pretty.

Jul 01, 2020 — 15:01 #

til my daily bike ride is 6 miles. that’s a lot longer than i thought!

Jun 30, 2020 — 15:32 #

i bought 7 tshirts online (all the same shirt from the same store) and they shipped them as one order of one shirt and one order of 6 shirts, scheduled to arrive on the same day.


Jun 28, 2020 — 19:04 #

<3 thunder

Jun 27, 2020 — 13:54 #

i’m gonna see a friend in person for the first time in many months! very exciting.

Jun 25, 2020 — 18:17 #

wow, i just feel really bad. that’s cool.

Jun 25, 2020 — 02:13 #

really got a lot of whiplash from being prepared for a nice chill social hangout and instead getting several hours of stressful work

Jun 25, 2020 — 01:49 #

feeling lonely and running through my list of people to call, each one an even worse idea than the previous

Jun 23, 2020 — 17:31 #

also, SSC is definitely one of those acronyms that has multiple very different meanings :p

Jun 23, 2020 — 17:29 #

i’m really amused by the SSC discourse, but really should not comment on it…

Jun 23, 2020 — 15:25 #

why on earth do i ever answer my phone, it’s never something good

Jun 21, 2020 — 23:02 #

i want to go for a nightime bike ride but my bike lights don’t arrive for another two days :(

Jun 21, 2020 — 16:15 #

face mask selfies are cute, tbh

Jun 18, 2020 — 17:23 #

bikes are so good

Jun 18, 2020 — 14:26 #

something i miss dearly about going to physical grocery stores is being able to select my avocados so that they’ll ripen one after the other, and i’ll always have an avocado that’s just the right amount of ripe.

Jun 18, 2020 — 07:02 #

thinking about the aesthetics of privacy of your image/voice vs data - cameras and microphones are viscerally creepy, other forms of data collection aren’t. does it make sense to weight the things that are visceral as highly as we do? i can see how it would, but it’s hard to think about.

Jun 15, 2020 — 12:34 #

the problem with living in NYC is that any impulse purchase i want to make can be justified with “well, it’s only N weeks of rent”

Jun 13, 2020 — 13:37 #

increasingly looking like NYC had a ""“competent”"" coronavirus response compared to everywhere else in the US which is just fucking horrifying

Jun 13, 2020 — 12:06 #

i really do not get how Matthew Yglesias became a thing

Jun 13, 2020 — 01:18 #

so apparently all of the not feeling anything for the past three months was just saving it all up for today

Jun 11, 2020 — 02:57 #

tbh really not looking forward to anarchism suddenly being in vogue

Jun 10, 2020 — 02:41 #

i am not smart

Jun 06, 2020 — 22:03 #

well it’s nice to remember what working hard is like. been a solid like 3 years since i’ve done this.

Jun 06, 2020 — 13:03 #

ahhh, the “lay around naked until i finally get around to getting an air conditioner” part of the summer

Jun 05, 2020 — 01:43 #

i just wanna make out with my friends again

Jun 04, 2020 — 19:11 #

ramekin is a pretty fucked up word. that’s all.

Jun 02, 2020 — 17:12 #

my beard is long enough that i can stick a comb in it and it just sits there

Jun 01, 2020 — 14:53 #

i love that “zoomer” is unironically a thing now

Jun 01, 2020 — 00:37 #

luv 2 see notifications that my friends are on signal. fuck em up.

May 31, 2020 — 15:23 #

took a walk through downtown brooklyn today. surprised at how normal everything feels.

May 31, 2020 — 13:44 #

ugh, my bike got stolen :(

i hope whoever took it needs it more, but also just ugh, this means i’m going to need to wait a lot longer before i can bike again :( :(

May 31, 2020 — 02:35 #

i don’t know if what i’m doing is helping, but at least it’s something.

May 30, 2020 — 04:50 #

feeling hopeful for the first time in a while

May 30, 2020 — 01:19 #

well, seems like no more 2am walks for a little while

May 29, 2020 — 16:38 #

the way that youtube sponsorships have destroyed the concept of having a conclusion in a lot of video essays is really sad to me

May 28, 2020 — 19:45 #

i’m really, really tired, and i don’t know why. have a few hypothesises but really not looking forward to having to go figure out wtf my body is doing.

May 28, 2020 — 03:14 #

i found out a very funny thing today but i can’t share it anywhere :(

May 28, 2020 — 00:01 #

i think the way to fix twitter is to just immediately and permanently ban anyone with more than 1k followers

May 27, 2020 — 23:37 #

i feel like the ""“patronage”"" model is pretty fucked up in a ton of ways, but also it seems reasonable to work in the system that exists? idk

May 27, 2020 — 22:39 #

thinking about just paying some writers i like to write things and making a little book/magazine of it? i think that this is not actually very expensive for a tech person to do, i sort of wonder why there isn’t more of this.

May 26, 2020 — 16:38 #

my bike shipped! super excited :)

May 26, 2020 — 13:16 #

i really wish lobste.rs was better than it is

May 26, 2020 — 01:30 #

taking a vitamin d pill at night feels wrong, because vitamin d is sunlight and it’s dark outside and i should be sleeping

May 26, 2020 — 00:31 #

ok i did the thing

May 25, 2020 — 23:38 #

when will google let me give them money to just never see the recommended youtube videos

May 24, 2020 — 00:31 #

huh, did a double take seeing a “log in with TikTok” button for the first time today

May 23, 2020 — 15:24 #

my bag of sour patch kids had a piece of licorice in it by accident, and licorice covered with citric acid is actually pretty tasty

May 23, 2020 — 14:05 #

my pile of books is somewhat overwhelming

May 23, 2020 — 02:21 #

luckily two decades of toxic masculinity has made burying my feelings instead of talking about them pretty easy, so i’ve got that going for me

May 23, 2020 — 02:03 #

so it turns out that all the people who i can call up when i’m sad go to bed at fuckin 8pm

May 22, 2020 — 22:25 #


May 22, 2020 — 13:15 #


May 22, 2020 — 07:40 #

haven’t slept which definitely means it’s time for caffeine

May 21, 2020 — 15:21 #

i cleaned my glasses for the first time in months and it was a truly magical experience

May 21, 2020 — 14:25 #

https://www.sheldonbrown.com/ is so good

May 21, 2020 — 12:47 #

the distinction between knowing what you’re getting yourself into and realizing what you’re getting yourself into is underappreciated

May 20, 2020 — 18:16 #

way too tempted to just write my own rust web framework

May 20, 2020 — 16:03 #

using comparisons to cars when talking about risks should be banned

May 19, 2020 — 16:05 #

everybody complains that lisp has too many parens, but then they freak out when you go full RPN

May 18, 2020 — 12:00 #

starting to think that telling people to only pay attention to reputable sources has resulted in people turning their brains off when they are reading things on reputable sources.
reputable sources can be (and in fact, often are) wrong!

May 15, 2020 — 22:18 #

i want to socialize more but i’m so tired

May 15, 2020 — 17:17 #

ugh i’m so tired

May 15, 2020 — 17:12 #

https://hanabi.site is online :)

May 15, 2020 — 00:44 #

i used the word “extant” in a sentence that wasn’t contrived and i feel very fancy

May 15, 2020 — 00:05 #

starting to think that the web has reached two local maxima during its entire existence: GeoCities, and jQuery.

May 14, 2020 — 05:37 #

oops i forgot to sleep :(

May 12, 2020 — 01:07 #

i want to make a webring

May 12, 2020 — 00:00 #

i’m really glad that i decided to do NGW things

May 11, 2020 — 02:51 #

amazed at how long the “a little X, as a treat” meme has stuck around

May 11, 2020 — 02:31 #

random 2am thoughts:

the utility that i get from a book is not reduced by a book having factually incorrect information, so when i review a book for other people, factually incorrect information only is bad if it paints a story i don’t like. this seems ok to me.

things in the US seem like they could get very bad very quickly? i think when considering bad outcomes in the US i’ve been overestimating the likelihood of economic collapse (still very likely), and underestimating the likelihood of other bad things, which are less globally correlated than economic collapse.

legibility politics is something that i want to think about a lot more. there seem like there are really fundamental connections here with language and power and other things that i’ve spent a lot of time thinking about.

May 10, 2020 — 20:36 #

hmmmmm is it time to retreat from all human contact again?

May 10, 2020 — 14:11 #

food should cost a lot more than it does

May 07, 2020 — 12:03 #

ok i gueeessss i maybe have a couple crushes on internet people? imo that doesn’t really count though.

May 07, 2020 — 11:57 #

it’s international tell your crush day and somehow i don’t think i have any crushes right now? i blame the pandemic :(

May 06, 2020 — 14:27 #

disappointed that you technically can’t send an A3 zine through the mail as a postcard (it’s too thick, so it counts as a letter)

May 06, 2020 — 12:57 #

TIL that “Mailpiece Design Analyst” is a job

May 04, 2020 — 13:37 #

ok it was too weird i changed back

May 04, 2020 — 13:33 #

wearing a different pair of clothes than i usually do for the first time in more than two months. feels weird.

May 04, 2020 — 00:06 #

weird feeling when someone meets me and my brother (separately) and their first question is “so, uh, what was your upbringing like?”

May 03, 2020 — 22:50 #

adding a book to my reading list just because the title has been stuck in my head since it first came out a year ago

May 03, 2020 — 22:45 #

fuck i miss climbing

May 03, 2020 — 14:20 #

aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh it’s finally reading outside in the hammock weather

(probably has been for a while, and i just hadn’t noticed since i’m not going out during the daytime)

Apr 30, 2020 — 02:19 #

pretty convinced that “minimalist” software just means software that’s written by an asshole

Apr 29, 2020 — 12:53 #

prediction: in ~50 years, starlink smears and similar formations will be a thing that people appreciate and think looks good - it’ll follow an arc similar to debates about the Eiffel Tower.
(this doesn’t mean that starlink is good btw, it’s bad because centralizing communications infrastructure is bad, and people’s aesthetic concerns are also valid. but aesthetic concerns will change over time, and once people are used to seeing smears like starlink, that will become part of “natural beauty”)

Apr 28, 2020 — 21:56 #

i should maybe think a bit more about how much i optimize to maximize other peoples yearning for me…

Apr 28, 2020 — 21:31 #

Right Round The Clock is the song, i was getting it confused for Mad World, which it references:

> I’m feeling kinda crazy, I’m feeling kinda mad
> The dreams in which we’re famous are the best I’ve ever had
> I’m feeling kinda crazy, I’m feeling kinda mad
> The dreams in which we’re famous are the best I’ve ever had
> You’re the best I’ve ever had
> You’re the best I’ve ever had

Apr 28, 2020 — 21:24 #

ah i found the song! it wasn’t actually a remix it just has lyrics that conflict with a much more famous song

Apr 28, 2020 — 16:23 #

fuck a song that i have stuck in my head from some youtube rabbit hole weeks ago was apparently a remix so i can’t find it by searching the lyrics and now i’ll probably never find it again :(

Apr 28, 2020 — 13:35 #

it’s gonna be funny to go to the climbing gym when this is all over and just watch everybody be complete trash at climbing

Apr 26, 2020 — 23:07 #

i like writing code, but i don’t like having code

Apr 26, 2020 — 20:25 #

thinking about getting really into parsers

Apr 26, 2020 — 00:47 #

hmmm i just emailed a @gmail.com address that i haven’t interacted with before with the word “sex” in the title and a link as part of the body text, what are the chances that they’re ever going to see my message…

Apr 25, 2020 — 20:54 #

huh, i just now realized that the reason that i always mix up it’s and its for possessives is because you use an apostrophe to indicate that a name is possessive, but that’s more of a special case than anything.

Apr 25, 2020 — 19:55 #

remembering when someone found a bug in some code i wrote when i was at google, but was like “i don’t think the bug could be here, this file is copyright google so it’s probably right”

Apr 22, 2020 — 12:07 #

thinking about running a rss-only blog

because of course i need more places to write things…

Apr 21, 2020 — 12:17 #

<3 thunder

Apr 17, 2020 — 13:18 #

you know that programming advice is good when you have to scroll the wayback machine all the way back to 2001 to see it

Apr 17, 2020 — 02:52 #

APIC and ACPI being entirely different things which interact with each other in subtle and annoying ways is some strong chaotic evil energy

Apr 15, 2020 — 23:25 #

the web is bad

Apr 15, 2020 — 22:28 #

wasm is magical

Apr 15, 2020 — 21:32 #

does my version of thoughts support linebreaks?

Apr 15, 2020 — 19:37 #

content-addressable types

Apr 15, 2020 — 18:26 #

i figured out how to make my hair be straightthis is a gamechanger

Apr 15, 2020 — 15:37 #

huh, i didn’t realize that Notes on the Synthesis of Form and A Pattern Language were by the same person

Apr 15, 2020 — 03:33 #

i want a “calendar”, but instead of being a calendar it’s a constraint solver/optimizer that i can feed arbitrary constraints into (both binary, like “i need to visit this store, which is open at these times” and scalar, like “i want to assign X weight to getting my quota of exercise in”). then the calendar part is that it also speaks ical so it can know about less flexible events and show everything in one place.

Apr 13, 2020 — 20:23 #

i guess one change in my politics in the past ~4 years is that i think i basically support a californian independence movement at this point (and if it includes cascadia, even better)

Apr 13, 2020 — 20:08 #

i don’t check twitter for one day and my housemate offhandedly mentions the Six State Council coming together to form their own govenrment. i ask if the nation-state of California is part of it, but no, they’re part of the separate “West Coast Pact”reality is a bad sci-fi novel, but hey, at least i’ll get to see the collapse of the american empire within my life ¯_(ツ)_/¯

Apr 13, 2020 — 00:55 #

strongly considering becoming anti-floating-point

Apr 12, 2020 — 22:56 #

starting to think that a lot of liberals really hate the idea of trump, but not like, any specific thing that he’s done

Apr 12, 2020 — 21:23 #

cannot stop thinking about this tweet.

Apr 12, 2020 — 19:24 #

my crappy but convenient earbuds broke, so now i’m using my nice but sort of annoying headphones, and wow does everything sound so much nicer

Apr 11, 2020 — 11:40 #

ugh i got up at 11am for a thing but it turns out it’s at 1pm

Apr 10, 2020 — 14:03 #

starting to get a little annoyed at my sleep schedule - it sucks to wake up and have no idea what time it is.

Apr 09, 2020 — 11:17 #

there’s something special about writing a proxy - at first, it just works and is completely magical, and then you can start dipping your toes into the stream of bits going past, mucking with things here and there and seeing what changes, slowly understanding the structure of the protocol going past you. it’s a good way to understand a system.

Apr 09, 2020 — 03:50 #

fuck how is it 4am already

Apr 09, 2020 — 03:35 #

ok i wrote my own varint parser, that wasn’t that hard

Apr 09, 2020 — 02:22 #

gotta love finding a library that “parses varints,” does not specify what type of varint it parses, and lists as example applications, three different protocols which all use slightly different varint specifications…

Apr 09, 2020 — 00:58 #

slowly coming to terms with the fact that i am bad at writing computer programs

Apr 08, 2020 — 23:29 #

started watching the most recent Well There’s Your Problem, and getting really frustrated at how bad leftists can be at… not being wrong about things. there’s this whole generation of Chapo Trap House/Mike Gravel/Well There’s Your Problem style leftism that seems to be pretty effective drawing people in, but does so by just lying and/or not bothering to research anything and just assuming all facts line up with their worldview, and it’s just really frustrating to me :/you don’t need to make shit up to convince people of leftist ideas, the truth works well enough for that.

Apr 08, 2020 — 02:40 #

having lots of thoughts about how credentialism relates to the current covid-19 situation. i still don’t believe in credentialism, but i do believe that it doesn’t make sense to trust inexperienced people. it’s hard to communicate that distinction, though, especially given the nebulousness of what counts as “experience”i think it’s somehow tied in my mind to the sre org at goog, and how that was so full of people who had taken weird paths to get where they ended up, and were really great at their jobs because of it. i’m sad that that’s not something we see in other fields much, especially given the value that i think there is in applying the sre skillset to other domains.

Apr 07, 2020 — 17:51 #

uh, it’s a little strange that that didn’t prompt for my password, but ok….

Apr 07, 2020 — 17:50 #

if this works, then it means that the integration with my password manager worked :o

Apr 07, 2020 — 17:47 #

i can write thoughts from vim! that’s cool :)

Apr 07, 2020 — 17:43 #

testing writing text in a file!

Apr 07, 2020 — 17:33 #

links and shit maybe work?